Life before 2008 16 Dec 2005 06:53 am
Still, Still, Still…..
“you can hear the falling snow…..”
- from my favorite christmas song. We don’t have snow and moonlight yet, but I’m sure it will come soon. This christmas will be quiet and cozy. I’ve done all the best: baked cookies with my kids, written and sent out the cards (well, half of them anyway), listened to my entire collection, did all the shopping and wrapping in the span of two hours, decorated cookies with friends, made crafts with the kids…still left is a long walk in the cold, decide what our family meals will be, finish the cards, mail out the cookies, and meditate in silence the Miracle of the Light.
- two friends blogged about a death they’d experienced. Not the encompassing kind that devastates and debilitates…but the kind that lingers in the mind, the kind that causes the living to hug each other a bit tighter, to wonder what our own legacies will be. The kind that makes us mourn the unknown and the familiar. It’s a strange kind of death…at the end of a year, in a season where there is so much distraction to get lost in. In thier saddness, there is a wierd closure. The kind of death that will still cross the mind while quietly looking out a window and maybe sigh and cry in spring.
- In the cold night I hugged a trembling little boy, come to us not awake but profoundly afraid. Who knows what caused it…but it’s rare to see a child that shaken. Another was happy to play most of the night through. Another sawed his logs under seven layers. A girl here listed all the things in her dreamhouse, with 14 employees, four stories, a jacuzzi, and 10 locks on each door and then dreamt of it all night…or so she reported over her sausage, eggs, and toast this morning.
- today we deliver a cookie plate, pick up the last of the cubscout popcorn and drop off the check, clean and bake and shop for groceries. It’s bright and beautiful; the bare trees providing a clear view of the teeming bird and squirrel life. The frost has made the yard white and my toes and fingers tingle.